I just keep replaying what I did tonight, I almost killed someone.
It was like I was dreaming, I couldn't help myself, the guy attacked my Dad's friends. What was I supposed to do?
I learned here at the Citadel that you never shoot to kill, you shoot to stop, and if they happen to die in the process at least you're alive.
A firearm is cleaner than what I did though, I guess its one thing to be at one end of pistol and pulling the trigger, what I did was different, and I don't know if I can do it again....
...... I cut someone, and I cut them deeply... and I didn't stop, until he stopped, and when I thought it was over.... he took his chance to do more harm....
... and now nothing feels right.
What am I going to do? I don't know if I can do this again.